permanent for now

i ended up here
early afternoon erev shabbos
and decided i wanted to try again

i sit now, at the intersection
of décarie and girouard,
wishing i had done differently

but i know where that path leads
and wishing i had done differently
doesn't change how i acted.

i cannot take back what i did.
i built a house on quicksand
because i couldn't see 

i just cant blame new york for this.

i stand here on sherbrooke west
outside of the centre jeunesse emploi
it's snowing. but it's warm.

the prospect of moving forward.
the feeling of being at peace.
in february, once more I call NDG home.

i finally put up mezuzahs
and i'm changing the hooks
because it's permanent for now.